I can't believe it's been nearly a week since my last blog. I have been doing lots of thinking, and lots of praying during the last few days. I have contemplated different things to post here. I think I am just going to continue to pray. I write the paragraph below because I am committed to write whatever is on my mind in this blog. Well, the following has been the only thing on my mind this week. Feel free to join me in this prayer.
+ + + God, I sit before you this evening in a humbled state. There are so many things I could ask for. As of today I'm still not getting a paycheck from Eastern Local Schools. I'm still battling with the state and the county to get on the same page. The requirements have all been met on my end. The problem is just a mixture of semantics, paperwork, and disorganization... all at my family's expense. Part of me says to get angry, to call the NEA (union) and start rattling some heads. But I don't have the energy for something like that. It's amazing how a situation like this can wear you out, and nearly drain you physically. On top of that, both of our cars are dying. Our best vehicle, the Rodeo, has 176,000 miles. It's been in the shop the last two weekends and will need to go back this weekend. So far each time it has come out of the shop it has been worse than it was before it went in... needing more service, labor time, and replacement parts. Our house (mortgage) payment is coming due on February 1st and we've already called the bank to give them a heads-up that we cannot pay it (one of the most demoralizing things we've ever had to do). Taxes for the house in Wauseon are due this month. Car insurance is due this month. What an amazing month!!! Lord, You are the first and the last, the beginning and the end. You are the one who put the stars in the sky. You are the maker of all things. You govern the days and the nights. You know every hair that is on my head. You are eternally perfect in every way. Though no one else may understand, I know YOU understand. There is no one else who has even a fraction of the ability that You have to intervene and lift these burdens from us. That is why I come to You. You are the giver of life. You are the great Comforter. You are the One who sustains our every need. So I come to You, to cast all my cares on You. Please give me Your burden. I know that it is easy and light... and much more enjoyable to carry than the ones I have been carrying around. Take these things from me, Lord. Let's make the exchange... right now. Amen + + +
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